Asking the Universe for Help

When everything fell apart so something new could begin

This is a continuation of The Day I Followed My Intuition

When Nothing Feels Aligned

It was early 2024, just a few days before my magical encounter at the mall. I was really not happy with my job or career, despite investing so much into it for almost a decade. My dissatisfaction did not make logical sense. On paper, I was doing pretty damn well.

I did all the manifestation work: vision boards, visualisations, scripting, and affirmations. I landed the job and salary of my dreams, with only two days in the office and a 10-minute commute. Where I live, people would sell their left kidney to have that kind of flexibility. Ok, I’m kidding, but really, it was a dream situation.

When the Dream Still Doesn’t Feel Right

My dream of being an inspirational guide for personal transformation was also taking off. I was landing speaking opportunities and podcast interviews, and I was being primed for success with the help of a business coach, life coach, speaking coach, and even a therapist. I went all out to be in the best possible state to pursue my dream.

It seemed like I had everything that I wanted and everything that I had wished for going for me. But nothing that I did could shake the feeling that my heart was breaking and my body, quite literally, was shutting down.

The Breaking Point

While this was not professionally diagnosed, what I was experiencing felt like the peak of my season of burnout and the initiation of my dark night of the soul. I was crying almost every day: when I woke up, on my way to work, in between meetings, and at night at the thought of having to do it all again the next day.

I was breaking down, and I didn’t know what to do besides surrender.

Asking for Help

At that stage of my life, not coincidentally, I was being led to stories and books about asking the Universe for help and surrendering the burden. It seemed ridiculous to say, “Okay Universe, I’m handing my massive problem over to you,” but I didn’t have the energy to do anything else.

Just opening my email or receiving a text message resulted in me breaking down in tears. Life was just too much for me, and I was willing to open myself up to receive help, even if it seemed crazy.

Letting Go of Everything

I knew that if I were going to make changes for the better and heal through whatever it was I was going through, I would need the space to do it. My life would need to be filled with much less than what was occupying it.

It broke my heart even more to make the decision that I would give up my dream of being an inspirational guide, at least temporarily. It was not my primary source of income at the time. It wasn’t earning me any money at the time, actually, so it made sense to put it on pause to focus on my health and my day job until I was better.

A Quiet Prayer

With my intention clear to create the space to improve my health and happiness, I asked the Universe for help. It wasn’t any kind of grand gesture. Just a sincere request, silently in my mind, to help me overcome the pain I was experiencing.

There was no sign in the moment that my request had been received, but I believed deeply in my heart that I would be taken care of.

The Beginning of Change

And the Universe came through less than a week later.

I was divinely guided to my first oracle deck, where I received the message that I would be led down an unknown path and that great strength would be needed. Although I didn’t believe it at the time, that message was a kind and gentle heads-up for what was about to happen.

Though nothing could have prepared me for the way in which my world turned upside down just a few days later.

The Choice That Changed Everything

An unexpected confrontation with a trusted mentor and friend of several years resulted in me having to choose between my day job (which paid me) and my dream of being an inspirational guide (which hadn’t yet earned a cent).

I had placed a great deal of trust in them. They were a long-time friend after all, and they had a great degree of control over my job and even my career.

It would have seemed like a no-brainer: Keep the paying day job, duh! But my heart would not allow me to give in. I could not allow myself to be controlled by another person, even if they were my friend and I loved them so much.

The Lesson in Betrayal

It was one of the hardest lessons I have had to come to terms with.

Sometimes, people will appear in your life to help you rise through trials and hardships, and the final test is to carry the lessons they have taught you when they betray and abandon you.

It’s much easier to walk away from a life that doesn’t serve you when your heart is broken. Betrayal can be a gift when you use it as an opportunity to choose a better path for yourself.

Choosing Myself

I chose myself. I chose my dream.

And that meant I had to walk away from my stable job and career. It was the most terrifying decision I have ever made in my life to date.

My friends, family, and colleagues were baffled by my decision. The number of people who supported me and believed in my vision could only be counted on one hand—and that included my husband and my cat.

Falling Into the Unknown

Without any plan for the way forward, I was flung into the depths of despair and uncertainty.

Despite it being the most painful experience I have been through, I knew without a doubt that it was my prayer that had been answered by the Universe.

When Life Rearranges Itself

I sincerely wished for a better life. I did not insist on it looking any particular way, and I trusted that I would be supported.

The Universe orchestrated a perfect series of events to help me be removed from a reality that was destroying me. It wasn’t pretty or easy, and it did require me to make a difficult choice, but the Universe did the heavy lifting.

I was shown what was no longer good for me and the path that would be more fulfilling.

The Truth About Surrender

When you surrender without insistence or expectation and trust that the Universe will provide in a way that is truly best for you and all others, life will arrange itself accordingly without you having to force or control.

Your only task is to be receptive to the infinite possibilities.

With love, Yas

All that you need is already within you.